Well today is April 19, 2025. It’s been 53 days without gambling. And I want to be completely honest, i’ve been happy.
Today, I had so many thoughts thinking of going back to sports betting and researching about professional gamblers. And i realised that I can’t do it and it’s not for me. My nature cannot change. I’m just posting this for accountability. I’m not perfect and I’ve been through a lot. I dont know why but I opened my old gambling account. Found out that there’s a very small amount left, and I placed a bet with it, after watching all the sports betting professionals video. I realized that sadly i’m the 99% of people that gets hooked and loses all money. I feel very bad.
I read a book called “easy way to stop gambling” written by allen carr and its words immediately popped in my head. I want to live a normal life and the past 53 days have been a really nice normal life for me. I can’t gamble cause of how i am.. and i cant make a professional path out of this cause i’m very emotional in it. Eventually i know that if I continue this path i would end up betting huge amounts again.
I’m sorry for myself but i need to respect myself and love myself more..
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